It amazes me how dumb I am.
Everyday I reach a new low.
Screw academics, I’m dumb as an all over individual, and this dumbness really doesn’t seem to be leaving me. I don’t think there’s a cure for how dumb I am.
It’s not only my incapacity of being an adult, it is also the results I get because of how dumb I am.
I turn that saying I came, I saw, I conquered into I came, I saw, I embarrassed myself.
There are too many instances of those, I can’t even begin to tell you about it. I’ll sit down on a clearly unfinished chair, say weird shit to people I met like five minutes ago, and also forget how to talk when I need it the most. I’m not one to say words like “Woke”, but count on me to say in front of actual professional adults.
I know what the problem is. See until a few years ago, honesty was a problem with me. When I stopped lying, I didn’t know that I won’t just lose my ability to make things up, but I’ll also lose the filter in my mouth. Like earlier I used to keep my bad jokes to myself, laugh at it for hours, and enjoy it but now, I feel the need to share it with others, which doesn’t bring any joy to anyone, it just earns me weird looks and curses.
But despite me being a dumbass, I’ve been doing good. I don’t talk to a lot of people, sure, but I guess that’s okay. I don’t want to talk to anyone new, especially a boy or something like that. I don’t k now how to talk to boys. They say things and I don’t understand them. They’ll be speaking like a proper human being and my outdated brain would not be able to comprehend what they said. Like this one dude was in town, and I hadn’t ever met him before so he asked if he could meet for all three days he was here and I made up an excuse on all of them. Because first, he could be a serial killer for all I know and second, I knew I’d embarrass myself so why do it? I once accidentally said to a friend of me “Dude, that’s not how I like to be choked” and he didn’t talk to me for 3 months. There was no way in hell I was going to take this chance again. I never know what’s coming out of my mouth so I just minimize the chances of speaking altogether.
Leaving that aside, my hair is finally the color I wanted it to be!!! It’s very blue and green and what’s normally called “mermaid hair”. Ever since I drastically changed my hair, it wasn’t quite what I had imagined. There was always something I had to compromise on, but this time, I couldn’t have asked for more it turned out to be so so so great!
Now, time for this time’s playlist. There isn’t much, because I’ve been reading too much to listen or to browse more music.
- Nice for What- Drake
- Wild Thoughts- Rihanna & Bryson Tyler
- Ship to Wreck- Florence and the Machine
- Satisfied- Hamilton, the musical
- Chun Li- Nicki Minaj
- I like it- Cardi B ft. SZA
- All the Stars- Kendrick Lamar ft SZA
- Love lies- Khalid ft Normani
- Ten feet Tall- Afrojack ft Wrabel
- Tere Bina- A.R. Rahman
- IDGAF- Dua Lipa
- Bandaged Hand- Louden Swain
- Brother- NEEDTOBREATHE
- Me- The 1975
- Sleep on the Floor- The Lumineers
- Without you- Oh, Wonder
- Drive- Oh, Wonder
- Bad Habit- The kooks
- Robbers- The 1975
- Call out my Name- The Weeknd
I guess that’s it for now. I hope everyone’s going good. 😀